Chasing the Rush
As I searched for this week's #throwbackthursday Instagram post, I found many photos from the Adorn Detroit show, but I also found a screenshot of this quote, "She is at peace, and yet somehow on fire." --Samantha King. I took this screenshot while I was waiting for the show to begin because it embodied exactly how I felt that day. The quote represents the moments when you know exactly what it is that you want, you are working hard and getting validation. It's an incredible rush that I have perhaps continued to chase, after feeling it for the first time many years ago.
I first had that rush when I was in elementary school, 4th or 5th grade. That year, I was eligible to work for our school bank. There were two positions, teller and manager. There were only two manager positions and several teller positions available. I knew that my odds were higher to get a telller position, but I wasn't confident in math and therefore didn't really want to be a teller. I wanted to be the manager, but I had never been one before. I wasn't sure if I would be qualified for or worthy of attempting the role, since I had no experience. Yes, the world, as early as 10, had taught me to limit myself or at least taught me that other's may see limits for me.
Nonetheless, I wanted to be a part of that bank, so I talked to my dad about my dilemna. I asked him if I should still apply for the bank manager role even though I hadn't done anything like that before. He said, "do you want to be manager." I said "yes;" and he said, "then yes." I went out for the role, and got it! I was so excited and took it very seriously, as I did with any responsibility.
One day the students in line for the bank really piled up. I mean out of the door, down the hall lines, and I knew two things. First, no one wants to wait it long lines, and I didn't want to encourage people to stop using the bank. Second, the people waiting in line were students and needed to get back to class, in a reasonable amount of time. I assessed the situation by looking around the room. I knew that my tellers's were in a good position with their tills, I saw that they were very busy working, and i noticed a group of 3 or 4 teachers all talking to each other-- seemingly oblivious to the long lines that had developed. So, what did I do?
I whipped out another register and started taking customers myself. I, the 10 year old who wasn't confident in math and didn't want to be a teller, became a teller for the sake of the bank. Once, the lines were short enough I stopped telling and went back to managing. The teachers looked shocked. They asked me why I had taken that action, and I replied that it was the only thing to do to get the lines down. They looked impressed. The moment I started taking students in my line, I and saw the other lines decreasing and the energy of the room start to relax, I was at peace, and on fire.
That day, I knew I was a good manager. I felt the rush of going for what I wanted, getting it and getting validation for a job well done. I've found that same rush many times in my life, as I saught out different goals and achieved them. Now, I get that rush from JDH, what's yours?
-- Nina E.